I know I have been guilty of a little “exercise-bashing” on this blog… my hate of all things cardio hasn’t been a well kept secret or anything.
A few weeks ago, I entered and won (!) a give away on Sara’s blog… Fit to Blog. I must confess, I entered due to the fact that a bag of cacao beans were included in the prize. I didn’t take much notice of the other spoils on offer (for the record… stevia, psyllium, vegan chocolate, a gym bag….) I never win anything anyway. Ha.
Anyway, imagine my surprise when a) I won and b) I won a 6 week training programme with Kerryn including a fitness programme, nutrition advice and online support/guidance.
Yeah, I’m kinda afraid. Honestly though, I’m quite excited… we are starting the programme on Monday, and after recently joining a local gym I have actually been quite inspired fitness-wise. I’ve been pretty honest and open here about my struggles with depression and anxiety, and let me tell you a bit of exercise and getting the heart pumping really does wonders. I notice on the days I go to the gym in the morning, I have so much energy for the whole day afterwards… plus my mood just sky-rockets. The difference is amazing.
Anxiety is a funny little arse-pain: in my experience, you have to keep testing and proving that little sucker wrong. Going to classes at the gym, and simply leaving Misty in the creche for an hour have been good such tests. I tend to over-analyse and examine any new situation/event and spend days beforehand thinking about all the things that could go wrong. A useless waste of energy basically. By just saying ‘stuff ya,’ to my anxiety and actually doing these new things, instead of just thinking about doing them (and finding a bazillion different reasons not to) I come out on top. A win for the little guy.
Going to an actual yoga class (for the first time in years) has made me accountable to the fact that my home practise, while good, wasn’t enough – motivationally speaking. By challenging myself and taking a Vinyasa class (I usually favour Hatha/Yin) I’m working my body and mind in so many different ways. I have always shied away from more dynamic yoga practises… I’m not the most self-confident person, and would rather avoid situations/challenges than end up looking silly. It’s been a nice surprise to find myself rather enjoying a different style, and relishing the challenges this new practise brings to my “yoga-table” if you will.
Anyway, the point I’m trying to get to is that I’m going to use this 6 week training programme as an opportunity to learn about gaining strength and stamina which will hopefully benefit my yoga practise. Feeling strong in asana is something that I want to really focus on, and I think focusing on building a little more muscle can’t hurt.
I know what this looks like… I’m not even going to say it. Anyway, due to my increased activity level my appetite is even crazier than usual. I’m trying to up the amount of (vegan) protein I’m consuming, while not getting stuck in a same-same day to day of eats.
This is a new snack-favourite, even though it may resemble one of Misty’s nappies. A chia pudding made with one of my sweet bean dips: Chia seeds, black beans, banana, coconut milk, coconut sugar, cacao, lucuma and a sprinkle of sea salt. Deliciously ugly.